- Name
- KATLA
Website:
- Referred by
- Just Surfed On In
From:
Time: 1999-06-17 00:51:41
- Comments
- I'M 17 AND I AM GOING THROUGH SO MUCH PAIN. YESTERDAY I
TOOK ABOUT 20 OR 25 PILLS. I KNEW THAT I WASN'T GOING TO DIE. I
WAS TERRIFIED. BUT ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT WAS TAKING MORE AND
JUST GETTING MY LIFE OVER WITH. I LOST MY FIRST LOVE AND I DATED
A GUY WHO DIDN'T CARE ABOUT ME. I HAVE LOW-SELF ESTEEM. JUST LIKE
LAST YEAR. NOTHING IS CHANGING!!!!!!!! BUT I GUESS I HAVE TO
MOVE ON. I DON'T KNOW BUT I WILL WAIT FOR SOMETHING BETTER.
THANX! I'LL FIND A WAY OUT OF THIS MISERY!!
6/28/99 4:21 PM
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Name: Tai
Website:
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Gold Coast Australia
Time: 1999-06-07 07:55:16
Comments: Three times I've tried to kill myself, the third time
was only two weeks ago. i used to be afraid of dying, but now I'm
not. this site has made me realize that maybe I'm not as useless
as i first thought, but i still walk around the school in a daze
like a zombie, knowing that everyone is staring because they know
my secret because someone i thought was a supportive friend
couldn't keep their mouth shut. i could go on forever, but i
won't. Thank you for such a great, informative and helpful site.
Keep up the good work. (thanx for everything Maz &Mim)
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Name Passionate
Website
Referred by Just Surfed On In
From St. Paul, MN
Time 1999-06-01 04~18~41
Comments Hi I just want to say I Love the PICTURES on here very
much. They showed the emotion in them. I could feel the death the
pain the person or thing was holding inside them. I love the one
by Van Gohg, I think that's how you spelled it. The one picture
called the crows over the field. That's not my only favorite
there's more. The passion was binding in them so well. The dark-
ness that surround the pictures really bring a scary feelings in
it. The waves and the curves bring the sadness and dizziness in
the pictures. These pictures had so much emotions behind it. I
REALLY LIKED IT. If you find something interesting more about it.
Please feel free to e-mail me. I would like to know about it too.
Or if you just want to say hi!
Name: CHRISSY
Website:
Referred by: AOL
From: Merrimack, NH
Time: 1999-05-13 05:04:41
Comments: I really liked this site. I wanted to read it b/c I am
searching for some sort of closure to my friend killing him
self.. There was no signs and no goodbyes, he hung himself, and
he never shared his pain with anyone. It hurts me deeply, but I
keep on thinking of this quote, The decision to kill oneself usu-
ally ignores the effects on others who are dearly loved; And I do
believe he ignored it, suffering so much... It was pain to live.
I just want everyone to know, (name deleted) he was such a sweet
and fun loving guy, and GOD BLESS.. birth 7-30-76 death
5-11-99'
Name: life is too .good
Website: do not dick
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From:
Time: 1999-05-10 09:23:17
Comments: Not bad!! Put up more methods and your page might just
be as good as A.S.H. !! :) i like the suicide paintings too, so
put up more of them! (no return email given)
6/28/99 42,1 PM
Name: Cindy
Website:
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From:
Time: 1999-08-12 16:42:42
Comments: I have tried 3 times to end my life ..........Those
feelings have taken over for the worse! I have tried all the
resources and I have good insurance, and found it just don't
matter to anyone but yourself! whether you live or die! I want to
say thanks out here online for a little hope! If you happen to
read this page. I feel so much pain inside! !!!!!!and I would
give anything to make it stop!
Cindy
- Name
- Autumn
Website:
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: jersey
Time: 1999-07-15 02:06:55
- Comments
- i tried to kill myself numerous times in the past. When
i turned 16, i met someone worse off than me which opened my eyes
and made me realize that life isn't so bad. i was suicide free
for almost 2 years when my life decided to spin out of my con-
trol. i lost my job, I'm stuck in a career that i don't want, and
my best friend and only true love is moving to the other side of
the country. i don't see a future without him, but i know if i
kill myself, it would destroy him and then i would never get to
see him again. love sucks!
Name Meenee Pay Thao
Website
Referred by Just Surfed On In
From Saint Paul, Minnesota
Time: 1999-06-01 04~09~00
Comments I love all the pictures that has been put in here. The
confusion and the pain I can see in the picture, to me seems to
be hard, confusing like the real thing.
- Name
- Melissa
Website:
Referred by: From a Friend
From: New Jeresy
Time: 1999-04-16 17:42:56
- Comments
- I have always thought about killing myself. I have
always felt alone and unloved. to tell you the truth the only
reason that i am still around is because of two things. The hope
of relocating my family and my now wonderful boyfriend who really
loves me. I will kill myself if I am ever to lose him. I don;t
even like to think of things like that.
- Name
- Belinda Smith
Website:
Referred by: Yahoo!
From: St. George Maine
Time: 1999-04-12 17:14:05
- Comments
- Hi my name is Belinda Smith. I used to be a self muti-
lator for about 2 years and I was very stressed out at the time.
I wanted an escape for all the mental pain I was feeling at the
so a friend introduced me to cutting myself. After a while I
started to do it all the time (everyday) and to me it seemed even
worse than smoking. I started to notice all the harm I was doing
to myself so I decided to tell someone. I told my counselor at
school and another teacher that I had, told my mom. She was
shocked and she didn't know what to do so it was all up to me to
stop on my own. I did it though. I cut myself every now and then
but that is only once a month. I have also had to deal with
burning myself. I would do that with cigarettes and I still have
all the scars. I think that if I got through such a hard addic-
tion than anyone can. I did it on my own.
- Name
- Pippy
Website:
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: New Zealand
Time: 1999-12-17 11:07:55
- Comments
- Well I'm only 15 and I first attempted suicide when I
was 12 but my friends helped me get through it and said it would
get better and shit. Three fucking years on and the bullshit is
still rolling in, pain after pain, hurt after hurt, I can't take
it, I'm too weak. The thing is it's not stuff that I can prevent,
I'm just ALWAYS in the wrong place at the wrong time. I've at-
tempted suicide three times in my life so far but I think the
reason I don't succeed is the fact I'm scared of dying but I
can't wait to be dead. The whole process is like taking morphine:
it hurts to be injected (committing suicide) but once it's set-
tled in you feel real happy and peaceful (when you're finally
dead) so you see I'm scared, but then again you'd think I'd be
used to it by now, feeling so much pain and all. I don't support
suicide I just believe that if it hurts someone so much to the
point they want to die, then why can't we let them do what they
feel will set them free for their hurt, let them be happy and BE
happy as well became they're n longer hurting they are at peace.
Thank you.
Name: Gina Arceel
Website: Choice Poker
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Tapioa, Michigan
Time: 1999-12-16 23:33:33
Comments: I just lost my fiance to suicide
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Name: kaz
Website:
Referred by: Net Search
From: england
Time: 1999-12-12 17:44:47
- Comments
- I am 21 years old and have attempted suicide once
already for a number of reasons and I can feel myself slipping
again as I have just started to stop caring. No-one understands
what or how I'm feeling One of the things that prevents me from
attempting to do it again is making sure I do it properly.
0k 3
Why do so many people feel this way? Is it because some of us did
not want to choose life in the first place? Is it because we live
in a world of pain, suffering and misery? No-one knows the an-
swers.
- Name
- disturbed
Website:
- Referred by
- AOL
From:
Time: 1999-11-23 03:55:10
- Comments
- I am in my late 30s. For many years I have been haunted
by an oppressive sense of unfulfilled potential. As I get older,
this sense becomes increasingly more overwhelming; there is a
self-fulfilling dynamic at work here as well. I have a 4 1/2 year
old and I am, at least temporarily, estranged from his mother. I
believe I have resolved to commit suicide. I sleep every night
with my 45. Strangely, I derive some sort of comfort from the
fact that my pain is only "a trigger away." I feel my life is
wasted, irrevocably misspent. I have made significant financial
provisions for my toddler and I am determined to make my death
appear accidental as I have no desire to traumatize those I leave
behind.
Name: ry_an hewlett
Website:
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: london england
Time: 1999-11-07 17:30:07
Comments: i know this will sound depressing but i need help.. i
need someone to talk to i feel suicidal
Finger painting by suicided mother
I try to answer
all the guest book entries with whatever wisdom I can muster.
Its probably not enough but I like to try.
From the webmaster and licensed psychologist.